Amateur Videos on OlderMommy
They bought the camcorder for the grandchildren and used it for this instead, and thirty years later somebody found the cassettes in a drawer. Amateur films with older women are the nearest thing this collection owns to a family album, a woman of sixty in the bedroom she slept in when the wallpaper went up, a man she has known for decades or met last month, and a picture that was never meant to leave the house. Nothing is lit. Nothing is hidden either. The television murmurs in the corner, a cat walks through, she laughs at the wrong moment and does not stop. Widows with a new companion make up a growing part of it, filmed on a laptop in a kitchen, both of them slightly amazed. Long married couples make up the rest, and those recordings have a rhythm that no performer could fake, two people who have done this several thousand times and still bother. He finishes wherever he always has. She gets up afterward and puts the kettle on, and the recording keeps running. The amateur films people return to are the ones where she looks at him rather than at the lens, because by that age there is nobody else worth looking at.
